mama said there'd be days like this.

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong in this position. Everyday is a learning experience and at times I feel way over my head. I am a nurse at the very heart of it all and I have a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that I am now on the other spectrum of patient care. I look at the patients on my floor and I miss the interaction with them: getting the toddler to take his medicine, comforting a very tired parent, encouraging a post operative patient to walk for the first time, changing a poopy diaper. Sigh. I miss it. Especially on days like this. I am now dealing more with paperwork, employee complaints, and dissension. Can't we all just get along? Can't we put differences aside and just be kind to one another? Aren't we all here for the patients? I am new at this job and it hurts to hear that someone does not think I am doing a good job. I WANT to do well. I WANT to be there for the nurses. I WANT to be a good manager. I know it is a process and I am trying my best. I just don't like the road to getting there.