I am taking this much needed alone time to get myself together in every sense of the word. I feel like a mess lately. No motivation, no purpose, no life. I am starting my 3 day stretch at work tonight and already, I walked on the treadmill right after I got up. Usually this is spent watching other people exercising as I eat Rocky Road ice cream. I don't really know what I am waiting for or what took me so long to reevaluate. I don't like how I tired I feel. I don't like the way I am thinking. I don't like that I don't know what I am aiming for but I DO know that I am generally not happy with the way things are right now.
The kids come and they go and we cannot wait for the heavens to part and for a genie to grant us our wish for them to live with us. That may never happen and I certainly cannot sit here and put our lives on hold. I have some self improvement to take care of. And I am the only one that can make me happy even though my husband tries so hard. It can only help me in the long run. My body, my overall health, and my mind all need a little TLC right now.
And maybe, just maybe, I can scrapbook some pages.